Let’s Talk

It’s been awhile since I’ve spoken to you. I missed you so much.  I know you are thinking I couldn’t have missed you because my actions didn’t show it.  You’re right! I’m not here to argue my case.  I’m not here to say I’m sorry.  I just want to talk to you.  I want to hear your voice.  I want to feel you again.  But let’s talk first.

I have to know, even without me, you are able to hold up well.  There are so many things going on in life.  The smallest things become the biggest issues.  That is still not an excuse to push you to the side. I’m not saying that these issues are more important than you.  Nothing is more important than you.  I considered them to be temporary problems that I could resolve quickly and return back to what I love doing the most. Pleasing you!  I often assume that you will always be there.  You aren’t going anywhere.  I didn’t want to let you go.  But time passes… A day becomes a week. A week becomes a month. And before I can eliminate my temporary problems, neglecting you becomes permanent.

What can I promise you to make you feel better?  Would you prefer that I just rip your clothes off?  Honestly, I would like that.  Do you trust me with your heart?  If I were you, I wouldn’t trust me right now.  I chased you.  I made you feel good.  I allowed you to take down your wall and let me in.  You gave me all of you.  Lord knows how difficult that was for you.  Afraid to let another in after being hurt so many times before.  I took that for granted.  Again, I assume you will always be there for me.  So ensure me I’m right and tell me that you will be there whenever I need you.  Make me feel good.  This isn’t about you.  This isn’t about us.  This is about me.  Me! Me! Me!  Me, taking the responsibility of doing right by you.  I’m not saying I’m sorry.  I will fix this.  I will show you how special you are. 

Times have changed.  I have given up all other social media.  This is the only place to find me.  So let’s talk. How are you doing?  What have you been up to? Can I be your ear to vent to?  Let’s find the solution to maintaining your happiness.  What does a woman want from her man?  Tell me!  Let’s just talk…

Black Phoenix